.gone til october.

damn it's the end of september already? here's a snapshot of the past couple of weeks:

football is in full swing and i'm getting my ass whipped in my fantasy league, again... you can check out my main record here at yahoo... i'm there as "hurricane tasty" (i usually go by "big and tasty," but in light of all the recent hurricanes...). oh well, go jaguars!!!

speaking of which... jacksonville hasnt had a direct hit from any of the past 4 storms, but my car was still dented by debris :/... bastages... OH someone posted this bad boy in my group forums:
the paths are absolutely wrong, but i thought it was funny...















last thing i need to bring up is this kid i saw over at docking station earlier in the week. he was playing that new game, fable, for XBox. now, kids can be obnoxious as is, but this kid had a hard time seeing the screen... so hard that his face was constantly pressed up against the 22 inch TV. being the only person near him, he asked me for help... sometimes i'm too nice... i spent an hour of my paid time to help him!!! but, man, he's semi-blind... he needed a bit of help so i gave it to him. after that bit of time i really had to get back to what i was doing. he wouldnt listen to my pleas and kept asking for help, so i just kind of... um... took the initiative and relocated across the store... besides, i thought to myself, it's not like he could find me(ouch). after that, he walked about the store asking people for help and no one did... i felt like shit, but i had to finish things. why the hell is a semi-blind kid playing video games anyway!?

.sundaze.

the wake of the morning that every guy awaits each year, i was given a formal ulitmadum to cancel whatever plans i had made for this game day to do chores by my father... chores... fucking chores... i candidly reminded him of yesterday afternoon, one of those typical no-plans-so-sit-at-home-and-watch-reruns saturday afternoons, when i had asked him if there was anything that needed doing and he replied with a stern, poker-faced "No."... As you can imagine i was highly annoyed by the lack respect i was given, but nonetheless, i don't pay rent(and you cant beat that *spiteful smirk*)...

as the day waned, i began to gain more grip of my emotions and based my lack of NFL's opening sunday participation due to karma... you need to understand that my home, err... my parents' home in jacksonville is surrounded by trees... the yard had turned into a debris field along with the rest of the neighborhood when francis came ever so slowly through florida... along with that fact, and that as a teen, i distanced myself as far as possible from my father and never once helped him when he asked me volutarily(without threats on my head), that this sunday was the pay back for all those days...

.morning thoughts.

i havent been in deep thought in awhile...

yesterday i was rollin to "Jesus Walks" by Kanye West and i started thinkin about God and religion as a whole... i've never been fond of religion and strong beliefs... i mean, look what it's still doin in the middle east for thousands of years... it's hard enough to keep faith in my computer, let alone a supposed non-fictional deity...

i woke up at 7am today and watched the haze of night dissolve... at first i thought about how the football season was starting tonight, but then my experience started to hurt because i thought about ben... i really miss him... and of course all of us close to him are dealing with him being gone one way or another, but i think about him everyday... he's a huge impact in who i am, so much so that i remember my mom scoldin me years back about hangin out with him and comin with that "birds of a feather..." junk...

i want to believe in eternal life and Jesus and his sacrifices... i want to believe that there'll be another time where i'll give my boy a pound and a hug and forget all the little shit that pissed me off and remember why he was my boy in the first place... i still keep his number in my phone because i want to feel like i can just reach'em like that... i want to believe in everything, but i just can't...

i read a book awhile ago, The Five People You Meet In Heaven... it's a fiction book, but it gave me a restored hope in life... and death...

yeah, well that was my morning... that, a smoke, a hard boiled egg, and "Broken Wings" by Mister Mister...

oh BTW!... frances was a bitch... camping whore, ha!

personal note: Go buy shells, plants... plan essay 1...

.test.

wtf is wrong with blogger on dial up?... all i wanted to dod was change my ghey banner... gew.

.1652.

if you dont know, i'm back in jax... if you havent figured that out yet, i dont care enough about you to let you know...

so i've been here for a good month now, although it was the biggest pain in the ass to get here... but, it was a good month... vy was here and it was great to have the romance bloom before school started... but now things are in full swing and the game face's gotta come on... i dont even know why i'm typing all this crap since i got a pile of things to do... for my own justification that i have no life again, i guess...

well, back to work... morning classes suck much ass...

trip notes:
jamaica's flag is a rainbow?
jacksonville's population is a million people
if i could go back in time, i'd invent air conditioning
my dad has a lot of movies
a good amount of those are asian porn
i have yet to put those back
seriously, jacksonville's population is a million people
the jaguars dont suck! they're rebuilding!
TLC, i'm in need of a Clean Sweep
my nipple hairs are longer than david's
sharks always attack the tourists first
yes, they know which ones are the tourists
sharks dont come to jax beach, just angry jellyfish and man-devouring algae
no, no... seriously, jacksonville's population is a million people
fat is flavor
cannons make awesome kodak moments
dial up sucks
build up, not out
if you like hot sauce, i feel sorry for your spouse
i've officially been farted on...