winter's starting to set in. actually it's been going on for awhile, but the freak weather of florida wouldn't give up summer heat for a week or two. it's quite frustrating bundling up and start sweating as you open the door. maybe that's just me... anyhow, things are consistent now, and it's really gets to me when i wake up. if only it was acceptable to walk in public with your blanket.
right now i'm listening to classical music. telemann, concerto in F for 3 violins, to be exact. i've always felt acoustic strings capture more emotional expression than other instruments. even when i made my own (crappy) music, i was drawn to the melodies i could make with those soundfonts. sometimes i regret not taking up band when i was in school. then i remembered i didn't want to be a nerd. where'd i go wrong?
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
.letter to a friend (cheap update).
dearest _____,
i figured i'd do this as a journal update, since i need to catch you up on things, as well as introduce you to my minor little blog...
i'm sorry i haven't written back sooner. i've been caught up with various projects lately. the major part of it is trying not to dwell in the past. unfortunately, even now i still find myself spacing out; there hasn't been a day that's gone that i haven't had trouble sleeping.
generally, i sleep like a... well, quoting my friends, i "hibernate." there was this time in my old apartment when the landlords were testing the fire alarms for 4 hours. i slept through the entire ordeal undisturbed. that should give you an idea of how hard i sleep.
but over the past few weeks, i've been unable to rest. this will be the third day in the past five that i haven't slept. i passed out unwillingly the other 2 nights.
last friday, i went clubbing. i abhor clubbing. but for reasons, which you are aware of, i needed a change. i'm lucky i ate a lot before i went out. i'm also lucky i didn't drive. despite my over-intoxication and a massive group of friends, i still felt empty. we all gathered at someone's house after the club closed. i laid quietly in my inebriated state in the middle of the street. stupid, i know... but i was too drunk to get up and really too drunk to care.
i didn't even notice a car coming until someone started shouting...
did you know you can see satellites at night? they look like stars, but they appear brighter and if you're out for awhile, you'll notice they won't move if you follow a consellation through the sky. i also saw a couple of shooting stars, i wished for her to find happiness and the 2nd one was for you to find the same...
i can't believe you still work at mcdonald's. the last time i ate there... actually that was last week... but the time before that was in 2004. i remember i got sick off of the nuggets. now i'm in the mood for a mcflurry. i understand it's 8am, but ice cream sounds awesome right now. do they still use reese's peanut butter cups?
did you do anything for holloween? write back soon. i'm sorry i didn't put more. i'll be honest; this is probably the 5th draft of this letter to you. i'll post this version now because i don't want it to seem like i'm putting you off. i haven't forgot about you D=. i'm just a mess right now.
i figured i'd do this as a journal update, since i need to catch you up on things, as well as introduce you to my minor little blog...
i'm sorry i haven't written back sooner. i've been caught up with various projects lately. the major part of it is trying not to dwell in the past. unfortunately, even now i still find myself spacing out; there hasn't been a day that's gone that i haven't had trouble sleeping.
generally, i sleep like a... well, quoting my friends, i "hibernate." there was this time in my old apartment when the landlords were testing the fire alarms for 4 hours. i slept through the entire ordeal undisturbed. that should give you an idea of how hard i sleep.
but over the past few weeks, i've been unable to rest. this will be the third day in the past five that i haven't slept. i passed out unwillingly the other 2 nights.
last friday, i went clubbing. i abhor clubbing. but for reasons, which you are aware of, i needed a change. i'm lucky i ate a lot before i went out. i'm also lucky i didn't drive. despite my over-intoxication and a massive group of friends, i still felt empty. we all gathered at someone's house after the club closed. i laid quietly in my inebriated state in the middle of the street. stupid, i know... but i was too drunk to get up and really too drunk to care.
i didn't even notice a car coming until someone started shouting...
did you know you can see satellites at night? they look like stars, but they appear brighter and if you're out for awhile, you'll notice they won't move if you follow a consellation through the sky. i also saw a couple of shooting stars, i wished for her to find happiness and the 2nd one was for you to find the same...
i can't believe you still work at mcdonald's. the last time i ate there... actually that was last week... but the time before that was in 2004. i remember i got sick off of the nuggets. now i'm in the mood for a mcflurry. i understand it's 8am, but ice cream sounds awesome right now. do they still use reese's peanut butter cups?
did you do anything for holloween? write back soon. i'm sorry i didn't put more. i'll be honest; this is probably the 5th draft of this letter to you. i'll post this version now because i don't want it to seem like i'm putting you off. i haven't forgot about you D=. i'm just a mess right now.