./me sighs.

after 3 months in jacksonville, i can say that things are very awkward at home with the family... it's as if they've taken a step back with my own short-comings. i can see it mostly in my dad's actions... well, lack of actions. his non-existant interaction with us at home indicates that something bothers him, but of course being the stubborn bastard he is, doesnt let me in on it... my mom on the other hand has become very energetic, almost as though she's trying to keep anything from bothering her, acting too involved in whatever i find her doing about the house.

this isnt settling well with my stomach... something's going to erupt and i'm going to be caught in the middle of it, whether i'm really the cause or not... frankly, i can remember things being this way when i left for orlando,*cough* which is why i left in the first place.

i've been distancing myself as far as possible from the house whenever i can. being there drags my morale, like a "pit of dispair" so to speak.

.same old #$&%, man, just a different day.

23... i'm 23 today and you know what that means? :/ not much for myself, in my opinion.

i dont know what it is about my birthday. i've always been turned off by the fact that i'm becoming older. frankly, the only real enjoyment i get from my birthday is the fact that Fall is just around the corner (it used to mean presents to me, but what are presents without meaning? sure, i enjoy gifts and such, who doesnt? but for me now, company and moments are important... and money... lots of money... *shameless hint*).

so how am i spending the day of my birth? going to class, studying a bit, playing video games, going to dinner with family, then maybe play some hold'em at jon-jon's/see what the guys are up to at the armory...

"but... why dont you hit the club? get your eagle on and shiet?"
i gotta save some money... because i'm going to the game! where you can be sure that I WILL NOT BE DRIVING HOME *grin*

now, if you'll excuse me... it's the same old shiet, man, just a different day